I felt: A bit useless, didn't do hardly any of the things I'd planned to do. Had to go into my son's school because they'd had an accident with his food and I had to take in extra. It took just over an hour of my time, but affected the whole day.
I thought: About the bad times, when I was throwing up on average twice a day, and exercising an average of 2 hours a day, bingeing horribly, and feeling awful. Then, I read a post about "Strong is the new sexy", and felt bad because I'm not lifting heavy, and I'm not watching what I eat. Not good thoughts, and I think that played into my eating :( I feel like I'm poisoning myself and my baby, and I'm not sure how to change my behaviour.
I slept: 8 hours in 4 chunks :)
I worked out: 45 minutes of Ellen Barrett's Slim Sculpt, a low-weight, high rep cardio-pilates workout.
I ate: Bad day - 301g choc biscuits, 75g choc - total 376!
I am grateful for: Knowing I am strong, fit and flexible, by my own definition.
Hug! Sorry about the crummy day. I hope your new day is good. :) I appreciate the vulnerability of the post! I definitely think about things and regret them--but then I remember that coming through these things and even experiencing them at all is a sign of strength. Not always a comforting or fun thought, but it helps to know everyone has struggles.
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You're so right, MM. We all have struggles. Doesn't make them any less bad, but at least we're not alone :)
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Sorry you're having bad days lately. Me, too. Don't take to heart the stupid crap you read online or in magazines.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing well, and not poisoning yourself or the baby. You are strong, fit and flexible by just about anybody's definition! I've seen you doing your yoga! :)
Why are we so easily influenced by others? It's a good and a bad thing, I guess. Good when it's supportive friends, not so good when it's "those in the know"... Anyhow, thanks for the kind words :)
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